megna

Blah blah blah!  It's 7:05 on my day OFF from work and I'm awake.  Meh.  I'm so emo! hah. Anyway, It's all together way to early and I don't want to be awake yet.  

Everything changes. Always.  Koby was put down a week ago nowish, work is depressing me, and blah.  I feel dissatisfied with so much in my life currently.  I want to get back into horseback riding but I'm terrified.  Not of riding but of really throwing myself back in, buying a new horse, all that jazz.  I want to go back to school but again I make with the 'terrified' comment.  I just feel beat down and defeated.  I feel that my life and desires are of little consequence.  I miss Koby.  I feel so badly for my Mom.  She made a hard decision and is hurting.  I just want to make things better in all these places and I feel like I can't change a

Tomorrow is the two year 'anniversary' of the day Flurry passed away and I'm more than a little depressed about this. I feel so blasé.  I think I'll go and take pictures tomorrow after work.  Hopefully, that'll help me feel better.